ABBY’s WORLDS OF FANTASY

setting: office (sa pagitan ng nagdadalawang-isip na kanta at pagpapasya)

oras: umagang walang magawa. sumama kaya ang puso? (walang aangal at walang magsasabi ng korni. kayo lang ang nakikibasa.)

breathe in, breathe out… 

tawa nang tawa silang mga kayosihan ko kanina. kasi naman bigla akong nagsisigaw ng shet, shet! nakita ko kasi ‘yung dalawang maya sa kalye, nauulanan tapos nagtatampisaw pa sa puddle (ampotah, walang nakakaalam dito ng translation nito). kala naman kasi nila may kung anong hayop o taong nasagasaan kaya ako sumigaw. eh hello? kelan ba naging rule ‘yun? nakakaawa naman kasi ‘yung dalawang maya. pag namatay sila dahil sa sipon, may iiyak bang tao para sa kanila? yes, naniniwala ako sa kanta ni tatang levi. pag namatay ako, may iiyak kahit isang ibon. keber na kung mahina o malakas.

count from one to ten pls…

naalala ko dati nang hell bent akong magpapayat. dalawang oras akong nagyoyoga araw-araw. tapos hindi ako nagkakanin at nagtitinapay. oatmeal at crackers lang. pumayat nga ako, pero nawalan naman ng boobs at pwet. tapos naiwan pa rin ang memory ng gusto kong makalimutan. kaya sabi ko nga kay nini kahit na tatlong order pa ng kanin ang almusalin nya kanina, ok lang sa akin. hindi niya kailangang magpapayat para lang makalimutan ang taong nagkataong mahal din niya. isipin mo na lang ABBY ham ‘yan, err… mahal naman kita. ‘wag ka lang magdemand ng manly embrace lalo na’t malapit ang christmas season. i can’t give something i do not have. devas?

gutom na ako, tinay asan ka na?

kung si nini nga, hindi ko pa binubuksan ang bibig ko, alam na nya kung anong punctuation mark ang babagay sa dulo ng sasabihin ko. minsan, sabay naming inuusal ang iisang salita o parirala. hello teacher ispiritu? wala ka sa podium! naiintindihan ko rin ang bawat pagsikip at pagluwag ng kanyang paghinga. minsan nga sinasabi ko sa kanya, sana lalaki na lang siya. eh di sana, may soulmate na ako. hehe.

yes, hindi ko pa nami-meet ang lalaking soulmate ko. malamang natrapik. pwede rin namang gaya ko, nakahanap siya ng maling kasama. teka lang, ilang beses na nga ba ako nakatagpo ng maling kasama (o akala ko kasama?) OMG!!! mac, dalawang beses na pala? mac, nakakapagod ang trial and error! i try to say goodbye and i choke…try to walk away and i stumble… (ampotah naman macy gray, wrong timing ka!!!) yes, bestfriend ko na ang exclamation point ngayon. walang kokontra!!!

pero sabi nga ni leanne rhimes, life goes on…

sabi naman sa pabunot sa tindahan, better luck next time…sabi sa signboard sa banko kapag weekend, sorry we’re close…si mac naman may hirit din, at the end of the tunnel, there is a man…sabi sa mga beauty pageants pagkatapos ma-announce ang final 10, thank you girls…sabi ng bestfriend ko, you have a brighter future ahead of you…sabi ni mac, we can only do so much. i-record na lang natin ‘to para bukas patutugtugin na lang natin ulit…sabi ni nini, hindi SIYA ‘yun…sabi ni juan ponce enrile, enough is enough …at finally ang sabi ko…

I AM OUTTA HERE!!!

Even though how much you grow old, sometimes you are not mature enough to actually like someone. Goes to show…. I am a sad example of this. I get blinded easily by superficial beauty. Superficial!

I am rather stupid in the first sense… and immature in the second sense. It’s not as if… I can get everything… or anything I desire. So why act stupid enough… Like what my friends said… why torture yourself in getting through the passages of love or like someone…

why go on the road towards this person? Why risk getting unnoticed or rejection in the end.

It’s because we care enough to say it to this person. It is often a big surprise… yet… it just goes back to you… that it all matters… on what you said… it just matters when the favor is returned… and he risks all his pride and self to say, they like or love you back. Somehow experience has taught me… and what the hell… it just changed me… maybe I wanted everything to go so fast…

I have failed to realize that I actually, just like this person for the superficial idea or reasons… why? can anyone say upfront that they are sure enough to take the risk and love this person… whether sweeping this person of his feet… or falling head over heels… Rather… It’s been better… to get to know this person more and more…

It’s rather silly if you say that "this person is different."

How are you so sure… if you haven’t actually got to know him.

I for one is guilty for this… rushing things… eager to grow up…

eager to have a relationship… but… in the end… LOGIC OVER EMOTIONS….

It’s just plain stupid… to be ACCIDENTALLY IN LOVE.

If you don’t even know him… It’s rather stupid if you say… I’ll love him…

is it a final statement on your part? for the person you like? Goes to show… how much you grow up? You can be sometimes immature to love/like. I am one of them.

I fall in the trenches of liking someone almost instantly… As if… I just like him… why? I could answer it in the most cheesiest thing i could think of… That’s "we are meant for each other… we are destined soul mates" Get real… nobody is destined for someone. We make our own destinies.

It just that we make things happen and make ourselves believe that it’s a sign for us. Yet… we just lead ourselves to misleading concerns. That… we get an urge to like someone… just because you say. "It’s different with this person… I’ll never get over him.. I’ll never met anyone so perfect for me…" Think about what your thinking… and take a look at what the future may hold…

Is it a happy ending? Or a till the next time… better luck in the next guy you see situation. It’s when you love someone and this person loves you back…

when magic happen… the thing called SPARK!!!

somebody please open my ears… I am rather deaf…

hay!!!!

Where to begin? How do I find the words to describe the way that you make me feel? When I am with you my spirit soars like an eagle on the wind. Your face takes my breath away. When I am away from you, you are all that I think about. When I am with you, I don’t have a care in the world. I just want to make you happy. If I could just make you feel half as good as I do when I am around you that would be wonderful. My heart is filled with joy every time, I see your name. When I hear your voice, it is like hearing angels singing. When I touch you, my heart beats like thunder. You move my spirit to a better place, just by being you.

There is no better feeling than lying there with you in my arms; I could stay that way forever, just feeling the warmth of your body against mine, and your breath on my chest. When I kiss you, it is like drawing the breath of life itself, you fulfill my every desire, and each moment I am with you, just makes me love and want you even more.

The days and nights that I am not with you are agonizing. All I can do is wait for the next moment that we will be together, everything in between is insignificant. ROJ,  you are the beat of my heart. You give my soul peace. Since I’ve loved you, I have known what true happiness is, it is being with you, and sharing my love with you. I want to share that love and happiness with you, for the rest of my life. Without you I am only half as good as I can be, you complete me and make me whole. I will love and cherish you forever. I just hope that you will accept my love and we can be truly happy, for the rest of our lives.

I can not imagine wanting to ever be with any one ever again, if it is not you. You are my light in the darkness, my shade in the dessert; you are everything good in my life. I never knew what the meaning of joy was until I met you. I love you with all of my heart and soul. I hope that someday, we can be together.

You hold my heart, and I love you. 

     Abby